09.26.04
Mean feeling
Funny how One gets used to pain to the extend of not feeling it anymore….!
I was shocked when I checked my calendar this morning… tomorrow will be the 40th day.
I laughed at myself surprisingly… I used to laugh at the idea of “el arbe3een”… used to call this “hartala”… I wonder if they’re gonna make anything…!
Then, I started blaming myself… I realized that I went on with my life… normally… doing the same things I used to do every day…!
Then I asked myself…did I forget her?!?
Nooooo… I didn’t…………… I just completed what I’ve started some 22 years ago…… Stayed ALIVE………!
Then why do I feel I’m mean for going on with my life normally……!
Confused Rehab….
09.05.04
The five stages…
There are five stages of grief after a loved one dies:
1- Denial —- “No, not me!”
2- Rage and Anger —- “Why me?”
3- Bargaining —- “Yes, me, but…?”
4- Depression —- “Yes, me.”
5- Acceptance —- “My time is very close now and it’s all right.”
– Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
